However, I am blessed to know that I am a daughter of God. And this simple nugget of knowledge diminishes my fear and calms my anxiety. My time on this earth is between me and God. Sure, there are things He wants me to do. He has expectations for me and a divine potential to fulfill. But He always loves me. And He, alone, knows how hard I am trying and what struggles I face and what mountains I have already climbed.
It doesn't matter if our homemade dinosaur-shaped biscuits aren't the prettiest food at at the BBQ. It doesn't matter if there is a quarrel between two two-year-olds. It doesn't matter if my daughter doesn't recognize all of her letters and numbers or isn't potty trained yet. It doesn't matter if I'm a little socially awkward and don't know what to say (seriously, guys, I will rack my brain for things to say, but I'm an engineer, so please forgive me and be happy if I at least noticed your shoes). It doesn't matter if my furniture is used and my decorations don't really exist. It is just the way I am!
There is right and wrong in the world. Righteous living is important. But many of these inadequacies are not sins. They are part of our character. If I was the same as the next person and she was the same as the next and all of our children were perfect because they perfectly reflected all of our efforts, that would be boring.
As women we have the potential to effect so many for good! We are a moral force for good in this world! We shouldn't be hatin' on ourselves, rather we should magnify our talents and the good we contribute and uplift others so they can do the same!
So what does matter? It matters that I am a child of God and He loves me. It matters that I am trying my best. And it matters that I am happy.
 |
| Us - being HAPPY and totally ourselves (I was teaching Alyssa how to take pictures) |
And just remember - you are a child of God, too. Let Him love you and love yourself and let the feelings of grotesque self-loathing dissipate as you do.
so beautiful :)
ReplyDeleteI absolutely loved this post. I struggle with comparing myself to all of the other wonderful and incredible wives and mothers I know. I know that I am unique and irreplaceable, but sometimes, I just wish I was "like the others" when it comes to house, home and raising children. I know that is the Evil One trying to get these ideas in my head to not make myself feel worthy of our Father's love. But we are worthy. And we are special.
And I will try to rest in that :) ~Jenna
Thank you for adding your insight. I am glad you enjoyed the post! It is all worth it in the end.
DeleteThis comment has been removed by the author.
ReplyDeletePlease don't take this superficially, but you are definitely who you need to be with that haircut. i LOVE it. Seriously, you look so great! And you are great! Thanks for the post!
ReplyDeleteGreat post! I think we all struggle with inadequacy and wondering if we're doing it right. Last week, a neighbor who is sort of a friend watched my kids last minute when I was in a bind. Today, I brought over a thank you card with some money in it to show my gratefulness and immediately after leaving received a text saying, "No way can I accept money!" I felt embarrassed. She was gracious about it, but made it clear that we're friends and I didn't need to pay her for her help.
ReplyDeleteFor anyone else, I wouldn't have, but because we are not close friends, I didn't know the etiquette about such things. The point is that we all have those moments of doubt. But luckily, we move on and learn from them :)